One Inflated Life

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One Inflated Life / video / 00:05:02 / 2016

One Inflated Life I used to express my feeling and uncertain fantasy with some visual methods. I felt quite early on that I am useless and weak in the middle of the large community, and I wanted to be a powerful existence at least in my frame. So I changed my body to surreal monster or Cyborg, but I already knew that these powerful objects symbolize just my personal fear. Now there is my second life in Germany. Quite different language, uncomfortable culture, Asian appearance … these things define me always as a stranger in this country. Usual conversation in German is still difficult for me and it always makes me depressed. Although the main characters in my video do not speak like me, but at the same time my artworks are getting more metaphorical and longer than before as if I enjoy a dialog that is not successful in the real life. Instead of language they express all feelings with gestures, sounds and physical transformations. They cover their faces and just knock the table on, wearing masks and tails of monster, and their heads start to swell up dangerously at last. I lost my tongue, I got neurosis. I am still a “Alien”.